31 January 2017

Why I Go to Church with Trump Supporters

Full disclosure: I find Donald Trump's administration and policies to be a morally, ethically, and sometimes even Constitutionally indefensible. When it comes to diplomacy, and many of the valid objectives Mr. Trump wants to achieve, he has all of the administrative finesse of a butcher. I didn't vote for him, and I think those who did misplaced their trust. I feel confident they will come to regret that decision in their own way, and in their own time. 

I'm also aware that I go to church with a lot of people who disagree with me. This post is not for them. It's for me, and those like me, and our struggles to find peace in sharing pews with them on Sunday.

Mormons in Utah have the luxury of saying that more people didn't vote for Trump there than did overall. Mormons in Idaho can't say that. It wasn't even a close race. Donald Trump won in Idaho because a lot of Mormons voted for him. There is no way to objectively distance ourselves from that fact. 

How that translates into my feelings about attending my own congregation is something I've been dealing with for months, ever since I found out my then-bishop supports Donald Trump. And I mean, really supports him. As someone I greatly respect, it wasn't easy for me to see him lift up someone I find so degenerate, and tear down others on social media with language I never heard him use in church. Even when he conceded to me that Mr. Trump had troubling flaws, it didn't help me to reconcile the conflicting thoughts and emotions I was having. We ended the conversation on good terms, agreeing fully in wishing we'd had better choices presented to us. But I eventually had to give up on understanding his line of reasoning. It didn't make sense to me then, and makes even less sense to me now that we're almost two weeks into this administration.

Until this week, I didn't realize how separated I've felt from my church family because of the election and all of its consequences. I felt betrayed by the community I love. They had consistently taught me to aspire to the highest values of morals and ethics. I never thought I would watch them elect a leader that does not represent or uphold any of those values.

How could I ever take them seriously again, as teachers of moral behavior? How would I find peace with our differences? As much as I tried to ignore those questions, they continued to fester into a resentment that I didn't talk about with anyone. I barely even acknowledged it myself.

This past Sunday as I was taking the sacrament, everything I was feeling came to the surface in a mixture of anger and grief over this week's Muslim refugee ban. I couldn't hold onto it anymore. I needed guidance from the Lord in how to continue loving my brothers and sisters, when some of what they say and do just isn't lovable.

If anyone would know the answer to that question, it would certainly be God.


Why do I Share a Pew with Trump Supporters, even when I Disagree with them?


The answer came to me, as I partook of the Sacrament this past Sunday. As I looked around and felt the familiar pangs of resentment, God answered my question when I wasn't expecting it.

Because there is nowhere better for them to be.




Examples of how true this is flooded my mind, beginning with the ordinance in which I was participating.

Where better for a Trump supporter than in a sacrament meeting, partaking of the sacrament? Where else on earth would they commit themselves so completely to follow Jesus Christ and keep his commandments? Where else would they swear, before each other and God himself, that they will "bear one another’s burdens, that they may be light... to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort"? (See Mosiah 18: 8-9) Where else would they recommit themselves to that promise, week after week, month after month, year after year, until they extend it to the entire human race?

I didn't have an answer. Where, indeed? The questions didn't stop.

What book could be better for a Trump supporter to read than The Book of Mormon? What book of scripture preaches more movingly against pride, greed, corruption, and the dangers of wealth, racism, sexism, and privilege? For Latter-day Saints who are also Trump supporters, what book would they willingly read that gives a more moving sermon than that of King Benjamin in Mosiah 4?

16 And also, ye yourselves will succor those that stand in need of your succor; ye will administer of your substance unto him that standeth in need; and ye will not suffer that the beggar putteth up his petition to you in vain, and turn him out to perish. 
17 Perhaps thou shalt say: The man has brought upon himself his misery; therefore I will stay my hand, and will not give unto him of my food, nor impart unto him of my substance that he may not suffer, for his punishments are just— 
18 But I say unto you, O man, whosoever doeth this the same hath great cause to repent; and except he repenteth of that which he hath done he perisheth forever, and hath no interest in the kingdom of God. 
19 For behold, are we not all beggars? Do we not all depend upon the same Being, even God, for all the substance which we have, for both food and raiment, and for gold, and for silver, and for all the riches which we have of every kind? 
20 And behold, even at this time, ye have been calling on his name, and begging for a remission of your sins. And has he suffered that ye have begged in vain? Nay; he has poured out his Spirit upon you, and has caused that your hearts should be filled with joy, and has caused that your mouths should be stopped that ye could not find utterance, so exceedingly great was your joy. 
21 And now, if God, who has created you, on whom you are dependent for your lives and for all that ye have and are, doth grant unto you whatsoever ye ask that is right, in faith, believing that ye shall receive, O then, how ye ought to impart of the substance that ye have one to another. 
22 And if ye judge the man who putteth up his petition to you for your substance that he perish not, and condemn him, how much more just will be your condemnation for withholding your substance, which doth not belong to you but to God, to whom also your life belongeth; and yet ye put up no petition, nor repent of the thing which thou hast done. 
23 I say unto you, wo be unto that man, for his substance shall perish with him; and now, I say these things unto those who are rich as pertaining to the things of this world.

I sat in sacrament meeting, thinking about this sermon. As I pondered on the plight of refugees the world over, I couldn't think of anything I wanted more than for Trump supporters to carefully study these words, and apply them. Mormon Trump supporters who read The Book of Mormon, and already believe it to be scripture, couldn't be in a better position to do this.

Where else could an LDS Trump supporter go where he or she would attend general conference, and find access to living prophets, seers, and revelators? Where else would they sustain these leaders, then later be called upon by them to serve the groups they marginalize? Where else would a Trump supporter willingly go to hear this talk, or this one, or that one, or the one from President Dieter F. Uchtdorf who was a refugee? How else would they ever see this website, dedicated entirely to serving and supporting refugees? To say nothing of this lesson from this year's manual on former President Gordon B. Hinckley, where he condemns all forms of prejudice:

May the Lord bless us to work unitedly to remove from our hearts and drive from our society all elements of hatred, bigotry, racism, and other divisive words and actions. The snide remark, the racial slur, hateful epithets, malicious gossip, and mean and vicious rumor-mongering should have no place among us.

Or perhaps stumble into this conference where Elder Jeffrey R. Holland warned:

"Governments today are not responding to the refugee problem urgently enough, nor on a large enough scale. Unless matters change, the refugees will be left to their own devices just as the Mormon migrants were. Right now there are simply not enough safe places—not enough Quincys, if you will—for the large amount of refugees around the world."

Where else would a Trump supporter go to experience the gift and power of the Holy Ghost, the saving and rescuing influence of the Savior Jesus Christ? Where else could they come to him so personally, to feel and know for themselves "how oft have I gathered you as a hen gathereth her chickens under her wings, and have nourished you." (See 3 Nephi 10:4-6) In no other place in my life had I ever felt the love of God more profoundly than sacrament meeting, because of the Spirit that is there. That was where I came to see for myself that I had been "gathered," and "spared" too many times to count. Only in feeling that love within their own hearts will Trump supporters ever feel secure in extending deliverance to the entire human family.

There could be no greater witness for the love of God, the love that saves and rescues, than the Holy Ghost. Under the influence of the Holy Ghost, members who support any policies inconsistent with the Lord's agenda will find themselves frustrated, and challenged to repent.




I found myself marveling at the Church in ways I had never before considered. What defense is there for any sort of falsehood in a church like ours, regardless of who tries to perpetuate it? Everything about our organization seems divinely designed to challenge deception, and the hold it has upon our members. The Lord will chasten his people, whether they like it or not. Members of the Church who support Donald Trump are not immune to that correction.

As I pondered on the reformation of my neighbors in the pew, I should have foreseen that God wasn't finished with me yet. As it turns out, God didn't feel they were the only ones in need of an attitude adjustment.


Because I Need Them 


One of the great lessons I came to learn on earth is how to extend mercy and forgiveness to people I don't feel like deserve it. It takes a lot for me to reach my breaking point. But my good opinion, once lost, is nearly impossible to recover. It's something I'm endeavoring to change. But like extracting microscopic gold particles from pay dirt, the Lord has had to blast out these qualities from my heart. It has been a long and painful process, involving some people that I still don't like very much. It was a problem for me long before Donald Trump began his presidential campaign, and will continue to be a challenge long after he is no longer in office. All I can say is, if you think that's not very Christ-like, you should have seen me before I joined the Church.

Forgiveness is hard. If Jesus wasn't making me do it, I just wouldn't bother. And by going to church with people that I'm bound to disagree with at some point, I get plenty of practice.

Who better for me to practice forgiveness on than Trump supporters? The more failures I see in them, the greater need I have to forgive them. This doesn't mean pretending not to see someone else's moral failures. But it puts me into a position to practice what Jesus taught about forgiveness in Doctrine & Covenants 64, which will only bring me closer to him.

8 My disciples, in days of old, sought occasion against one another and forgave not one another in their hearts; and for this evil they were afflicted and sorely chastened. 
9 Wherefore, I say unto you, that ye ought to forgive one another; for he that forgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin. 
10 I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men. 
11 And ye ought to say in your hearts—let God judge between me and thee, and reward thee according to thy deeds.

While it's my right to disagree with others, using all of the clarity, wisdom, intelligence, and fervor of my soul, it's not for me to resort to pettiness and smallness of mind. I should never allow what I feel about an issue to interfere with my feelings for a person. I'm not excused from my Christian duties to love, serve, and bear burdens—even if those burdens include racism, misogyny, or privilege. If that's what I see in others, that's what God wants me to help him address. And I can't do that if I pass judgment flippantly and quickly, without going to the uncomfortable places to achieve understanding and tolerance with others. As Jesus asked in the Sermon on the Mount, "how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye." (See Matthew 7:4-5)

If I'm not willing to deal with my own judgmental thoughts and hypocrisy, how am I supposed to help others do that?




I left that sacrament meeting better and wiser than I was when I went in. I left a burden at my Savior's feet I didn't realize I was carrying. I saw myself and my feelings with greater honesty, and it changed the way I see the people around me. If what I truly value is acceptance, and this is what I want to see in the world, I need to be a big enough person to do it first.

A message of unconditional love, peace, and tolerance cannot be preached—it must be lived. And today, instead of starting with the Trump supporters in my life, I'm starting with me.

16 January 2017

Bullet Journaling for My Scripture Study

Daily scripture study is not an easy habit to maintain. You'll recall I did a previous post about my scripture study bullet journal, where I said I was making some great progress with consistency. But there were quite a few things in my approach that I didn't like, so I stopped doing them. And once I stopped planning, my study became inconsistent again.

So I sat down and decided to deconstruct what was working for me, and what wasn't. What came from it has me really excited, and I think will allow me to zero in on what was working, and to ditch everything else that was needlessly taking up time and space.

The only thing I need my bullet journal to do is to help me study the scriptures, prepare lessons, and take notes in my various meetings. That's it. I don't need it to be a calendar, a planner, or a place of endless doodling. All of that stuff, as trendy as it is on all of the Pinterest boards for bullet journaling, is a distraction to me. I don't have time to replicate via hand drawn calendars what my cell phone can do in a matter of seconds. So I'm not going to do it anymore.

Instead, I'm going to focus my spreads purely on planning my scripture study. I wanted something simple that requires very little set-up time. With my new daily spread, I feel like I've achieved that goal:


DAYTOPICS/CHAPTERS/TALKS, ETC.
Monday (or date range for prolonged study)Faith, Alma 32, Moroni 7, Holland (April 2016)
GOALS
  • Find verses for lesson, talk, discussion, etc.
  • Personal goals for daily scripture study
  • Reading material for classes to be taught on Sunday
  • Receive answers from the Holy Ghost to a specific question
CHAPTER : VERSENOTES
Alma 32:1

:2, 3, etc.

Moroni 7:1

Bednar, TopicInclude any direct quotes, personal impressions
New verses on multiple days for prolonged studyAdd additional cross references and notes.


I'm excited to try out this daily spread to see how I like it. I like the elements here, but I could see myself continuing to perfect the formatting until I'm completely satisfied with it. I'll be sure to keep you posted as I find what works best for me here.

In terms of a weekly spread, this really is the full extent of what I need, in terms of long range planning. If I plan my scripture study topics too far in advance, they become too far removed from what my present needs and questions are. So in terms of nailing down exact topics, I'm sticking to a basic weekly spread. I've laid it out to fit the tall, narrow pages of my current journal. But I'm sticking with keeping Sunday as the largest day. That way, I can not only plan for how I plan to keep the Sabbath day holy, I can also jot down ideas during sacrament meeting of topics or questions I want to study in the coming week. These are easy enough to use the typical arrows, to indicate ideas that need to be migrated into an upcoming spread.


MONDAYTUESDAY
Include built-in spaces for FHE, family scripture study, family councils, etc.Plan for individual study, with topics, chapters, goals, etc.
WEDNESDAYTHURSDAY
Schedule study for upcoming meetings, lessons on whichever day works best for you (For me, it's always Wednesday_Schedule study before you attend the temple
FRIDAYSATURDAY
Plan to record promptings you receive,
scriptures you study at the temple
Schedule spiritual preparation for the sacrament
Finalize prep for Sunday meetings and lessons
SUNDAY
Plan to make the study of scriptures, general conference talks, devotionals, etc. a part of your Sabbath day observance
Note scriptures you want to use in meetings, councils, or lessons for the day
→ Indicate topics or chapters to be migrated with arrows


If you're feeling super proactive (or especially bored during testimony meeting or dry council Sunday) you can set up your weekly spread for the coming week, then fill it in. A sacrament meeting speaker may not be holding your attention, but getting something out of it anyway is a conscious choice. I've learned some amazing lessons from the scriptures in meetings like that, because the spirit of revelation is still there. Carrying that spirit into the rest of my week in what I study helps me to see the thread of revelation running throughout my life.

Because I don't find it especially productive to do monthly planning, I'm not going to do it anymore. The only part of that I found to be constructive was the goal setting, creative brainstorming, and personal reflection. So that's what I'm keeping. Instead of calendaring a bunch of stuff that far in advance, I'm going to stick with a list format to help me think of things to study. I can draw from it for my weekly planning if anything catches my fancy. I can migrate anything to next month's list that I still think is important, and add page numbers to the ones I do study.

  • Goals
    • What is working well in my scripture study, and how will I continue doing it?
    • How can I improve my study? What obstacles do I need to remove?
  • Topics
    • What is my least favorite or least frequently studied topic in the scriptures?
    • Break down larger questions into its fundamental gospel components, and study them
  • Reading Goals 
    • Example: Finish the Book of Mormon by the end of the month
    • Daily, Weekly, Monthly, Yearly Reading Goals (with trackers)
  • Lesson Topics
    • Come Follow Me
    • Gospel Doctrine/Principles
    • Teachings of the Prophets
    • Teaching in the Savior’s Way
  • Questions
    • Honest
    • Interesting
    • Personally relevant
  • Follow Up on previous topics/questions
    • Is there more the Lord wants to teach you on a subject you have previously studied?

By simplifying the way I plan my scripture study, I will make it easier for myself to follow through. Instead of managing my study as an event, I want to facilitate the best possible experience for myself, based on what I need most in that moment. What this looks like changes for me so often, I need to more fully embrace the variety and depth that's truly available to me. I'm looking forward to how these new changes will help me to do that, and I'll continue to post updates here as I make these tools and techniques work for me.

11 January 2017

Light and Truth: The Unity of Science and Religion

I adore Mayim Bialik. I enjoy her character on The Big Bang Theory, which incidentally is one of my favorite shows. The awkwardness created by intelligence, and the way you interact with the world around you in ways people don't understand—yeah, that's my life.





When I discovered that Mayim Bialik is also Jewish, and doesn't apologize for her religious beliefs, I really appreciated her on a new level. Because in the Age of Outrage, admitting you're religious can make you a target for a lot of unnecessary vitriol. Knowing that someone like her exists, living a life of faith in the public eye, it's refreshing to see. Her vlog about her views on the relationship between science and religion is no exception. And it really got me thinking about how I would explain my beliefs about this relationship in my life.

I'm a deeply religious person who believes wholeheartedly in God. I also believe in the scientific method as a way of learning about the world and people in it. I'm much more of a historian than a scientistbut good historians, objective historians in pursuit of facts, are scientific storytellers. As a historian, I'm obsessed with evidence, source citations, and dissecting assumptions. I love nothing more than a good research project or experiment to challenge a theory. To that end, there is a great deal in science that I believe in and support.

Because of what I believe about God, there is no restriction or limitation placed upon me in what I can or can't learn from science. Because of science, I'm able to discern between truth and error more readily in every aspect of my life, including my faith. For me to obtain the fullest understanding of the world around me, I need tools and answers available to me in science and theology. To that end, there is no necessary reason or benefit to keeping religion and science in conflict with each other in my life.


God, the Scientist

The only idea some people have of God is what they see in people who believe in him. They see closed-minded people who never question, even when questioning would greatly improve their religious sensibilities. But God is not like this, and undoing the contradiction between religion and science begins with a correct understanding of who God is.

The Milky Way
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To me, God is more than just a cosmic force in the universe. He is a sentient being, who controls forces and harnesses energy for the purposes of creation and propagation. God is an embodied, perfected being. We are his creations, his children, and he loves us infinitely and perfectly. I am his daughter, and he is my Father in Heaven. I was created in his image. I know, unequivocally, that he is real, because of the hundreds of interactions I've had with him over a lifetime.

God is a scientist, embarking on a great experiment. He knew we had the potential to be so much more than innocent children in his presence. So he designed a plan, or an experiment, where we would gain an education. He created an earth for us, where we would gain our own bodies. We would live as mortals, cut off from his presence, so we would learn to think, reason, and make our own decisions.

Perhaps a better way of expressing this, rather than an experiment God was doing on us, or even with us, is one he was allowing us to do for ourselves. Our world is full of physical forces, laws, rules, opposites to be explored. And he would allow us to have that experience, without him physically being present, to decide for ourselves how we would improve ourselves. As anyone who has ever been to school can attest, not everyone takes learning seriously. So it is with learning here on earth. We have the choice to include in that education a knowledge of God, to live in harmony with his plan, to love and serve him, and prepare to live with him again. Or we can reject him, his plan for us, and refuse to be governed by laws, reason, or limitations.

God is also omniscient. "He knoweth all things, and there is not anything save he knows it." (2 Nephi 9: 20)  Although he knows the end from the beginning, he does not force us to choose differently than the sincerest desires of our hearts. And like any scientist, he observes our choices objectively. He will not interfere with the choices his children make, even when they don't choose him. To do so would jeopardize the results of the experiment, and make them useless to us, in terms of truly measuring our progress.






God, the Creator

To me, God isn't just a scientist. He's the perfect scientist. He has a perfect understanding of all physical laws, and their interrelationship with every other scientific discipline. I believe he used his perfect knowledge of the material universe to create the earth. What we study in physics, chemistry, biology, astronomy, and geology are more rudimentary grasps of everything that God knows and understands. And I believe he spent a lot more time than six, 24-hour days forming and preparing the earth.

Many religious people don't understand what it means to be a Creationist. They think being a Creationist means believing that God created the earth. But it also means believing God created the earth in six 24 hour days. They seem to have missed the glaring problem with that conclusion, in that the sun and moonthe objects created to rule (or measure) the day and nightwere not created until the third day.

Time, as we have defined it, literally did not exist when God began creating the earth. There is no scriptural injunction to interpret these six creative periods (referred to as "days" in the Bible) as identical periods of time. And there's certainly no reason to measure them as 24 hour-long days. Relying on an honest look at the Bible alone, we can see how Creationism is inconsistent with what the Bible teaches.

Once the six 24 hour-long day Creation is undone, the inference that the earth is 6000 years old (because "one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day"), also cannot stand. Even if that 1 day/1000 years reckoning of time is literal instead of metaphorical, there is no limit to how old this earth can be, if we don't limit the creation to only 6 days.

From my perspective, as a Latter-day Saint Christian who believes God created the earth and reveres the Bible, there is nothing wrong with believing the earth is 4.7 billion years old. While this may put me at odds with the opinions and interpretations of other religious people, I'm not bound by their conceptions of God and his creations. I have no moral imperative whatsoever to hold up any idea of theirs when it is false. And God, who is omniscient and can speak for himself, has every ability to guide me to the truth. I must ask questions, then educate myself sufficiently to understand his answers, and listen for his answers. But the imperative of gaining knowledge is on menot on the imperfect people of faith who are trying to reason for themselves beside me.

Their imperfections and mistakes no more disprove the existence of God than my calculation error could disprove physics, or an error on a star chart could blot out the sun. Errors and mistakes are not a source of truth, and should not be used as evidence against God. If what is really up for examination is God, and not the approximations that people have of him, then focusing on their errors is logically wanting in every sense.


Science, A Method

The truth may come as a surprise to lovers of science who question the validity of religion, but serious religious people rely on the scientific method to deepen their faith. They question what they're taught, and how to approach it from a variety of perspectives. They scrutinize the principles of faith, usually within the context of a scriptural canon, which has proven its value and relevance over hundreds, if not thousands of years. They ask profound questions, including in response to challenging subjects, because being a believer is an intellectually rich experience.

The secularists who take the greatest issue with religion do so, at least in part, because they find our fundamental assumptions distasteful, or even intellectually irresponsible. You can't prove the existence of God if you assume the existence of God. And on, and on, ad nauseam.

If God, Then God is not how people arrive at a faith or conviction that God exists, because that argument does not produce knowledge. A religious person cannot sustain devotion on that kind of shallow reasoning. If it makes for useless science, it makes for equally useless theology. Rather, the same investigative qualities that lead to scientific discovery lead to the assurance that God exists. It all begins with an honest question, developing and testing a hypothesis, gathering data, and formulating a conclusion from that data.

  1. Question: Is God real?
  2. Research: If God were real, what would that look, feel, and sound like to me? Have I ever experienced that before? Is there another explanation that is simpler, or more likely? How can I experience God for myself? How can I measure that experience? Can I replicate the experiences of other believers who came before me? Should I come to the same conclusions they did based on those results?
  3. Hypothesis: If I replicate the behaviors of a believer, and the process they followed allows me to know and understand God for myself, then I will know he is real.
  4. Procedure: Establish an honest and objective baseline to describe my thoughts and feelings about God. Replicate the experiments put forth by other believers. Observe and measure changes in my own life, and in my feelings about God.
    (As a Mormon, that experiment was put forth to me directly by The Book of Mormon the first time I read it, in Alma 32 and Moroni 10: 3-5. How to adapt these into an experiment should be an individual experience. And just because it's subjective and intangible doesn't mean it isn't real. Subjective and intangible experiences can still be measured and analyzed.)
  5. Experiment: Study the scriptures. Consider them honestly, and with an open mind. Pray to know if they are true. Change my behavior to be consistent with that of a believer. Observe the difference over a period of time. Record the data. 
  6. Data Analysis: Observe and interpret significant changes. Compare results to baseline or control, as established in your procedures.
  7. Conclusion: Confirm or reject your hypothesis
  8. Abstract: Summarize your findings
  9. Presentation: I "presented" my findings by agreeing to be baptized.

The idea of religion and theology having room for this kind of experimentation was shocking to me when I first heard it. What helped me to view myself within this more complex framework of thought was actually The Book of Mormon.

In Alma 32, Alma describes faith not as a destination, but a starting place. He argues that faith and knowledge are distinct from each other. Wherever there is faith, there is a degree of uncertainty. This is where everyone begins whenever they learn a new principle, but ignorance is not what God wants for his children. Faith that resists knowledge from God is not faith at all. Rather, the purpose of faith is to produce knowledge and increase intelligence, to transition from a place of not knowing and being uncertain, to having knowledge and having certainty. Whether this relates to a law, a principle, or even the nature of God himself, Alma outlines the process to transition from faith in the word to "a perfect knowledge" of the word. (See Alma 32:26-43)


If ye will nourish the word, yea, nourish the tree as it beginneth to grow, by your faith with great diligence, and with patience, looking forward to the fruit thereof, it shall take root; and behold it shall be a tree springing up unto everlasting life.

Alma 32:41


No other religious tradition I had ever seen proposed such a deliciously intellectual approach to worship. But to Mormons, "the glory of God is intelligence." (D&C 93:36) Because I cannot fully appreciate that about him without his perfect instruction, part of worshiping him has to mean increasing my knowledge and wisdom. "It is impossible for a man to be saved in ignorance," said Joseph Smith, because "whatever principle of intelligence we attain unto in this life, it will rise with us in the resurrection." (See D&C 131:6 and 130:18)

Education and learning are forms of worship in my religious tradition. Challenging my own beliefs until they become increasingly true approximations of God, and laying aside all falsehood. Engaging with God in perfect submission until I become as he is: the embodiment of perfect, knowable, universal truth.

What could be more scientific?


"From Grace to Grace"

At the time I was exploring these questions and probing into religious ways of thinking, I was the living embodiment of the law of inertia. I was never going to move or change myself, until I was moved upon by a sufficiently large force to do so. For many years, I called myself the most unlikely of believers for that reason. If God didn't exist, nothing should have ever interrupted my trajectory as an unbeliever.





But when I was about as confused and closed off to religion as I had ever been, I had a collision with the divine of sufficient magnitude, I could never go back to my life as a skeptical, disinterested agnostic. God had acted upon me, that much I could not deny. And instantly, I could see equal and opposite reactions, precisely calculated by the Engineer of time and space, changing my trajectory forever.

That was ten years ago. In every way that could be scientific and impartial, my life is objectively better with my Heavenly Father in it. I have had greater educational and professional opportunities as a woman of faith than I ever would have had before. In the languages I've learned, cultures I've experienced, the places I've lived and traveled—nothing has been better for my intellectual advancement than the discovery of God. He has been the catalyst of every good thing that has ever happened to me.

I accepted the invitation from the Book of Mormon to "consider on the blessed and happy state of those that keep the commandments of God." (Mosiah 2:41) I have determined that I am a better person because I have Jesus Christ in my life. I have lost nothing of my analytical and curious nature by becoming a Latter-day Saint. In fact, the longer I am a Christian, the more I see that an intelligent woman is exactly who God intends me to be. And I can't accomplish the purpose he has given me without a knowledge of a variety of subjects, not the least of which are science and religion.

I know that God lives. I know that Jesus is the Christ. I know the Book of Mormon is the word of God, and that Joseph Smith was a prophet. I learned these truths by the same process the Savior used to understand Heavenly Father during his mortal probation, having "received not of the fulness at first, but continued from grace to grace, until he received a fulness." (D&C 93:11-14)

I invite anyone with a desire to know God to do the same. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

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